Life has been pretty giving to me in the last few months. A turn in my career path, a turn I never knew existed found me. I am a firm believer in work your tail off and things show up, sometimes later than you really want them to, but show up just the same. Things don't exactly happen easy for me, in fact, I seem to find the hardest way to learn life lessons. However, let me tell you, when things do work out---every tear, stress ache, and glass of Jameson that you knocked back during those harder times seem to melt away into the unmemorable past.
Sure there are things that I'm not completely awesome with in my life, I mean, if I loved everything that was going on---wouldn't it be a little well--un-life like? All in all, life is not only nice, but going better than ever. Muay Thai is awesome, 3 of our girls are fighting--2 of them--for the first time on June 11th. I am so excited to go to a fight where I am personally involved with the players. Where my cheering comes from a place deep within, and well, I could go on and on.
Moral of the story: these girls seriously kick ass.
So here's where I admit to my anxiety with sparring. Hi, I'm Rachel Faith and I see stars and birds every time that damn mouth guard comes close to my lips, there...I said it. However, One can't exactly achieve a certain ones goal without overcoming one's fear of the pink, yes it's pink, mouthguard.
However, through the last few weeks, we've been putting the mouthpiece in during our weekly sessions, not just the Saturday sparring. Would you believe this small change has moved mountains in my hyperventalaking department? Things are slowly coming together like little lego's building a city, or a land, or well, my life.
As has the FIND ONE THING TO WORK ON AND FOCUS ON THAT: My 1 thing this month is taking the heavy nervous breathing down, it allows me to focus more on what I'm going to do, rather than my heart & mind racing. I'm also finding that if I take a moment after the bell chimes in to watch my opponent, little ideas pop into my head. One of the gals taped the session yesterday, and sure, I look like I was well, in a coma. But hey, I'm just starting...give me a break, plus I got some good hits in there:)
Regardless, back in the saddle again is a good feeling and the other thing that I was missing was my writing outlet.
So here I am, trying to compile a lego life that I love to live, not just dream of.
